Pressing Forward

So I've decided that this summer will be all about improving my relationship with God. Step 1: read the Bible every day. So I started that today. I picked a plan on my Bible app on my phone (gotta love technology) and set a daily reminder to read whatever is in the plan for the day. I've told myself a million times that I would read the Bible in a year, but I always get stuck somewhere around Numbers or Deuteronomy. But I'm going to do it this year. Feel free to hold me accountable and ask how I'm doing! It'll keep me reading :)

After my realization/rant a couple weeks ago (see my last post), I've decided that I really need to step it up in my personal relationship with God if I want to have any sort of positive impact on those around me, specifically the high schoolers at church. So please, ask me how I'm doing and don't be shy about it. I need the accountability and I know most of you reading this are people I can trust to talk honestly and openly with.

On another note, although not entirely, I have a lot on my mind tonight (as usual). It's good though. The young adult group at church was great tonight - just what I needed. Thanks Erik Vagen for allowing God to work in an amazing way! I was able to spend a lot of time in prayer - praying for our generation, for my friend next to me who I hadn't seen in forever, for Matt, for myself...

We read in Ephesians 3 today. My favorite reminder in the verses was that God is able to do immeasurably more than we could ask or imagine. (verse 20)

Wow.

More than we can imagine?? That's a promise by the way. There's no question in the way the Bible says it. So I started dreaming big. I imagined a generation full of followers of Christ, rising up to train and mentor the next generation to be even more faithful than themselves. I imagined myself a significant part of ending modern day slavery for good. God can do more than that? I have to be honest it's so hard for me to have faith in that. But while I prayed tonight, while I was listening to and singing along with the worship team as they sang about God being our savior and allowing the weak to say "I am strong", wow did that set in. I need to stop limiting myself.

I need to stop limiting myself.

Oh! So I'm the one holding myself back? It's the fear of failing. It's the pride that causes me to think "I'll do it my way". It's my quickness to default back to comfort and complacency. I'm done with that. I'm going to start praying big. I'm going to start opening myself to the Lord and honestly asking Him to do His will in my life. Scary? Yes. But it's that fear that holds me back so I'm letting go of it and giving that up to Him. Prayers would be appreciated :)